"An honest, searching exploration of the artist as a young man." - Kirkus Indie Reviews, Book of the Month May 2014 "...part travelogue, part coming out story, [88x50] is an unsentimental and at times harrowing self-portrait of an artist in the act of self-becoming. Tendler uses the book as an opportunity to rethink the very nature of memoir with web links to photographs, performance clips and journal entries that draw the reader even deeper into the experience of the America 88X50 tour." --Kevin Brannon, Lambda Literary Adam Tendler thrives on challenge. A virtuoso pianist attracted to the most demanding scores, he performs them from memory. A freelance artist whose fearlessness and nerve has seen him through highwire performances (without a net) at Carnegie Hall, he has shown up in rinky-dink churches from Alabama to Alaska to play modernist American music for 50 small handfuls of ruffians and little old ladies who must have thought they were hearing something like the music of the end of the world as he made his way, usually on a catastrophic, ill-tuned piano, through a program that would challenge even big-city sophisticates and Europeans. Meanwhile he burst out of the closet and transformed himself from music student to world-class artist--and wrote a harrowing, moving, glowing book about it. "88x50" is one of the finest memoirs by any performing artist, and a powerful testament to the great American project of self-invention and mastery. Adam Tendler is an astonishing pianist and a brilliant writer, altogether in a class of his own. -Rick Whitaker, author of An Honest Ghost and Assuming the Position: A Memoir of Hustling "...a transnational musical exploration by an unsettled self and soul, from the newest enfant terrible to arrive on our music scene." - Outsmart Magazine. "Tendler is bold both as an author and as a narrative presence. His mission to bring modern American music to a new audience is refreshing in its personal honesty, brave, and his love of what he saves his greatest passion for is heartbreakingly familiar, if you are a great artist. Tendler wears his need to be known unpretentiously. He is an artist who wants to be known through his music, and through his accounts of playing to different audiences he is baldly and nakedly tender and fresh. The book exposes our own need to express ourselves. From these pages he emerges as an artist, combining aesthetic emotion with situational humor (the mark of a true genius). Tendler only pauses occasionally to reflect sweetly upon himself, but when he does the artist is merely reaching out to make us more comfortable with the unfamiliar." -- Michael Carroll, author of Little Reef and Other Stories A music school misfit escapes to the highway with a ramshackle recital tour called America 88x50--eighty-eight piano keys by fifty states--winging it from the front seat of his Hyundai and bringing free performances of seldom-heard, modern American music to some of the country's most isolated corners. It's an all-American road trip with a modern music twist, but behind the public façade is a musical Johnny Appleseed desperate to find himself and spiraling into a secret life that could lead just as easily from ultimate self-acceptance to ultimate self-destruction. In this pedal-to-the-metal literary debut, complete with a free online companion offering nearly 200 multimedia features, Adam Tendler takes readers for an unforgettable ride into the classical music odyssey that beat the odds, shaped an artist, and shook this nation one piano at a time. Recorded at the DiMenna Center for Classical Music, New York City, Winter/Spring 2014